ItLTiL#2

When the world has fallen asleep, standing in the street and listening to the silence.

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Remember…

those happiness chills?
No?
Well, that’s because I thought I posted about them and I didn’t… weird
ANYWAY!
Happiness chills
When I see something so amazing wonderful to me, that makes me so dumb-struckingly happy I can’t help but smile here’s what happens to me:
It’s a chill almost, a tingling that creeps up my spine and forces me to smile, as soon as I do it spreads. It spreads all across my body, filling me with warmth and unbelievable joy. It’s how I know I truly like something and that that thing will always make me happy. It can happen when the hero beats down a bad guy, at the end of a great music number, or just something that makes me jump up and yell “YEAH!!!”
And recently I learned it can be caused by certain people too.
I’m getting those more and more lately…
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Because I’m on a roll

Everyone know what the Butterfly effect is?
No not that shitty Ashton Kutcher movie
It’s a “theory” about time travel basically stating that if you went into the past and killed a butterfly, when you went back to the present the world would be different.
It’s basically stating that everything is connected and that the smallest thing can impact everything over time.
People continously underestimate the Butterfly effect when I bring it up or try to explain it to them. It’s every moment of their lives and they don’t see it.
I see it.
I also am incapable of denying possibilities.
So when it comes to a decision like “Do you want to go to the Beach?” the answer isn’t simple unless I just shut off and ignore the world.
At the beach I could… meet my future wife, gain the inspiration that impacts a major screenplay I write or just simply, I get sunburned. That sunburn means that I’m not as able to sleep that well. The next day my response time is slower and I lose a video game. I play that game for an hour longer, meaning I don’t eat. Later I snarf down a bad… something, because I’m hungry and get sick. That sickness means I miss out on helping my friends decide to have a party or not. That party doesn’t happen, meaning 2 people don’t get into a car afterwords and get in a car accident.
No that’s not for certain, I can’t see the future, but imagine the stress caused by having every decision of your life be the most importent one too.
I can tune it out most of the time, but some days I just can’t and simple things become life altering events that honestly scare me.
sooo yeah, this time you spent reading this post means that you check CNN later, meaning you see the weird story of the day and when that conversation at that gathering later reaches an akward silence, you’ll have a story to tell. You’re welcome.
Oh and you’re also welcome for the good conversation starter with that date you have tonight. No, I’m not proud you told your cat about this go home.
I just changed your life.

I fucking hate the theater!!!!

LEARN HOW TO DIRECT!!!!
LEARN HOW TO ACT!!!!!!
YOU ARE ALL FUCKING SELF-CENTERED OBNOXIOUS ASS-HOLES AND I LOATH EVERY MOMENT I HAVE TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU!!!!
GGGAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!
And yet when I’m not in the pits of hell I miss it and think to myself, oh it probably won’t be so bad, maybe I’m exageratting!
BUT IT IS!! MY OWN NARCISSITIC DESIRE TO GET IN THE FUCKING SPOTLIGHT IS GOING TO KILL ME!!
Oh and it’s really nice to know that I got cast not because I was right for the role, but because I was your only option. Feels nice.
And now I won’t even have the one thing that makes the whole self-torture worth it.
Yay!!

Questions

When you have questions that no one can answer, where do you turn to?
I just don’t know…
Maybe it’s the characters making me feel weird
Maybe it’s the time…
Maybe I’m being an idiot
Hey universe! Care to give a bloke a hand here?
I just…
don’t
know
what
to
do
help

Rebirth

Here’s a shot glass full of story that I wrote at 1 in the morning and in about 20 minutes
See if you can guess what it’s about

Darkness… complete and consuming…
Then a fire, rage and hunger growing… taking shape…
It fills me, courses through my… veins…
Desire… the fire blazes and in that blaze I am shot out like ash back into the… darkness.
My eyes are open, but I can’t see anything…
Where… I lift my arms… but they go nowhere… I can move but I can’t move…
Then it hits me… The memories flood back… Mom… School… Sherry… but Something’s missing… Like a movie with no sound…
Movies…
Wait, there’s something else missing. Is it a sound?
I need to get out…need to escape…
A feeling?
But… I… can’t… MOVE
The rage releases itself and I lash out
Through the wall and into
Soft
Again
Again
Again
Again
The soft covers my head and fills my mouth
It swallows me up
It tastes bad
It tastes
Familiar…
Dirt
I should spit it out…
I don’t need to
Why not?
I fight
Crawling
Upwards
The hunger takes its form
I burst through
I hear them
I feel the air
I see…
Light
I hear
A drumming
All around me
But not in me
I want it
In me
I need it
In me
Blood

Pop music

I’ve started watching todd in the shadow’s reviews.
It’s changed my opinions on Pop Music…
Before: ALL POP MUSIC SUCKS BECAUSE IT’S POP MUSIC
After: THERE ARE LIKE 5 GOOD POP SONGS AND THE REST SUCK BECAUSE THE ARE POORLY MADE SHIT!!!
So yeah…
btw “Fuck You” is the first pop song I’ve liked… pretty much ever…
Anyway check out his stuff!

He’s pretty cool!
http://thatguywiththeglasses.com/videolinks/teamt/tis/tpsr